I took an on-line IQ test and did very well. However, I'm wondering if I did well simply because this could be a marketing tool trying to suck me into a mind-training/challenge sort of service. Because the thing is, I don't feel smarter than 95% of the population. And I know of plenty of people who know me who think I'm an idiot at times. I know that I often feel stupid and confused at work. My job absolutely calls for more intelligence than I have. And maybe I hang out with too many intelligent people (like my husband), because I always feel as though I'm just not at their level.
I had a confrontation with a client who wanted me to do something for him because he was "too busy to figure it out." Well, I couldn't do it for him because there are some task we are told we should not do. That doesn't mean I wouldn't go on and make sure I could figure it out. But I had to ask others who knew more than I do and with their guidance, I learned what this other person wasn't willing to figure out. Now I have improved my ability and I feel a little smarter. The thing is, the task involved math! The person who I had the issue with has a PhD while I have a BA. I did then show him how to do the calculation.
In addition to the IQ test, I ran our income through a calculator that tells you where you fall in the middle class. Turns out we are upper middle class. I guess my lifestyle never got that memo. We have two cars over ten years old (one is 14 years old). Our house is small by American standards. We have no granite counter tops, no HE washer/dryer set, and our only stainless steel appliance is the refrigerator. When we look at HGTV, everyone lives in a nicer house! I guess that I don't believe we're that well off because we don't live like we do and I usually feel like we live "lower" than others. But the thing is, the test judged your income and had nothing to do with how much it cost you to live, just the average income of where you were.
I think people buy into things like this. The numbers are impressive, but reality is a little harsher. That's why I'm always trying to do with less. I have this paranoia that even when things look good, there is danger underneath. Maybe that's good -- or maybe that's deflating and unhealthy. I'm not sure, and hopefully I won't suffer too much if I don't get it figured out.